Can't keep going

[walksthestars]

I just can't keep going. What's the point of it anymore? Everything has failed. My marriage, my car situation, having a roof over my head. Yes, I'm lucky to have friends that were willing to help. I just feel like such a burden even though I do help out with money and food stamps. It just doesn't seem to be enough. I can't keep going anymore. I just want to sleep and never wake up. Let my body return to the earth. Maybe my next life I won't be such a failure. Maybe I can get it together then. Now, it's better if I'm gone. No one has to keep picking at me then over every little thing. Maybe then, I won't hurt anymore and life can move on. Ryan was right to leave and go back to his family. All I do is continue to make mistakes. I couldn't even help him when his depression had gotten so bad he did nothing but snap at everyone and said he was going to Ohio whether I was going with him or not. Who would want to stay with someone like me?

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[kiss_me_you_animal]

Actually, babe,

There're people who'd miss you. Us for example.

And it wasn't ever your job to pull Ryan out of his depression. Especially when you don't have a good enough grasp on your own. And you know that to be true.

And I know this post is just the depression talking, because fuck knows we've been there ourselves, within the last week or so, but you've not failed until you stop trying. I understand being tired. Gods know I am. But you can't give up yet. You never know, maybe the light at the end of the tunnel is just around the corner.

-Poison